Grace- because we all need it
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They say time flies when youāre having fun and I guess itās true. This last decade has flown by and majority of the time, it was a great one. We definitely had our trials over those years, but Iām choosing not to dwell on those. We ended 2019 by completing our family with our baby girl and Iād say thatās a pretty great ending!
Every year I choose a new word to focus on, and as I was pondering lots of words for the start of this new one, the word GRACE kept popping front and center. If you know me, then itās no surprise that Iām a tad (or a lot) on the OCD side. I like things neat and orderly. Iām a prepper and a planner and I donāt function well if my space is in chaos around me. Well guess what Iām findingā¦ being a mom of two very active boys and adding our sweet little babe to the mix has rocked my boatā¦ a lot.
Our house is anything but tidy these days. I run on dry shampoo, yesterdayās clothes and cold coffee. Iām still searching for the routine that fits all of our needs efficiently. Even though this is still a huge struggle for my brain to comprehend, Iām learning that itās OKAY!! Itās okay for my kids to see a mom whoās not always put together, who occasionally drops one of the balls sheās juggling, and even a mom who sometimes wakes up when they do because sheās been up most of the night. Iām learning that itās much better to have a mom thatās happy and present for them than a Pinterest mom thatās overstressed and grumpy. My family needs me to be healthy, relaxed, have time for them and to know that I love them. So if that means Iāve got to struggle through a little chaos in this current season we are in, itās alright. Iāll proudly wear the raggid shirt with the words Chaos Coordinator on it for as long as is takes.
Thatās where grace falls into play. Just as I need Godās grace over and over in my life, I need to learn to give myself grace and let go of the things I cannot control. I need to forgive myself when I canāt juggle all the balls and they come crashing to the ground. I need to realize itās not a sign of weakness, but a sign of needing some rest and rejuvenation so I can try again.
šš» Iām also learning that not only is grace forgiving, but grace is also for giving. šš»
Just as I need grace, I need to be extending it to my kids and others as well. I canāt expect them to give me grace if I canāt return it when they need it too. I think way too many times we expect others to forgive us, but we fail miserably at realizing they are no different than us. None of us deserve grace, itās simply a gift that is offered.
So, I pray that my heart and yours is full of grace as we step into a new decade and new year! ā¤ļø
GRACE, n.
undeserved,
unmerited,
unearned,
favour